Monthly Archives: January 2012

An Ode To Norman

I think pets are important. I’m not one of those crazy pet owners that gets all offended if somebody doesn’t like my dog, in fact I’d rather know. That being said I love my pooch!! 

Meet Norman

My little buddy

He comes on adventures with me/ sits in the car while I run quick errands. 

He will hang out with my friends and I…sometimes 

I may be slightly biased here but I’d say he is quite the stud ;)  

Well that’s Norman the little ball of fur..full of energy and a personality like no other! He’s just a dog, I understand but having this oblivious little creature to curl up with when I need to chill out, and tag along with me on my daily walks, well its just encouraging. I can’t help but smile when I look at him and when he’s playing with his toys it’s impossible not to laugh.

Not to mention we are twins.

Do you guys have pets? Do you find them so comforting? I’m definitely a dog person, not so big on cats, tell me what you think! 

PEACE

One Step at a Time

Sometimes I wish I could fast forward and see how things turn out, see if everything really will be OK. It seems when one problem is taken care of, another one is there, ready and waiting. Trying to see just how far it can push my limits until eventually, I break.

I know everything is in God’s hands, He has a reason for everything. All of it apart of his perfect plan for me. Honestly though, that’s getting harder and harder to believe. At risk of sounding melodramatic I can’t help but question why God would allow so much pain and misery. It just doesn’t make sense to me.  I feel so selfish even saying that, because in all honesty I have a good life, materialistically speaking I have more than I need. Emotionally I have some of the most amazing supportive friends in the world, but that doesn’t take away the pain, the panic attacks, the memories, the fear.

The best I can do now is just take it day by day,  there is no need to predict the future. It’s not for me to worry about, as long as I do the best I can in the moment. Things aren’t going to go my way, or as I planned but they will go exactly how God has planned them for me, and I need to just focus on that. He has guided me through the good and the bad for the past 20 years.  I have no reason to doubt he is going to get me through this chapter. It’s all about  faith I suppose.

Well I’m off to go on a walk with one of my friends, then we’ll probably come back here for coffee because,well it’s free! The best part of working at Starbucks?

You are never low on coffee or tea.

EVER. 

 I  <3 mark-outs! And with such a surplus I get to give pounds of coffee away all the time, it’s fun!

PEACE

And so the year begins

Hey everyone! Seems like you all had a great new years with family and friends! I sure did! Didn’t take many picture but went out with a bunch of friends and just enjoyed myself. I was definitely thankful to have the following day off work.

Other than that I have just been working and hanging out with my friends who are all home for the better part of January, until school starts again.

Which reminds me, school. I have not officially been registered for classes yet due to a mix up with my account, it should all be straightened out by tomorrow. Truthfully though, I feel totally unmotivated to start school. Had I not already made the commitment to start now I would be holding off and just working my a$$ off so that I can move out ASAP. That’s really all I am motivated to do right now, “fly the coupe” if you will. coming home from work today I realized just how unhappy I am at this house. With Diane constantly nagging me and (unknowingly ) demonstrating exactly the opposite of who I want to be, and all the tension between her and I it’s just not worth being here anymore, no matter how financially responsible it is. I have gone to extremes to be the opposite of her in the past, and I refuse to do that again, being around her is just so triggering and not worth the energy.

I have been getting plenty of hours at work which has been nice, got to save all that I can, while I can! Other than that it is the start of a new year…I have no resolutions. I just don’t think the beginning of a new year is really a fresh start. For some people it helps them to regroup. Personally I’d rather take it day by day. This year has been a crazy one for sure though.

Kenya:

Uganda:

China:

And everything in between:

Bring it on 2012! 

Peace